HEYOOOO! (:

YAY!~ exam's finally over!! :DD
BUT, BOOO! this means the taking back of results! :(

i'm glad exam's over yet i'm afraid of getting back my grades. mixed feeelings... i cant help but smile when the last paper's being collected! =D yet, this means there's plenty of time for me to think&think. plenty of time for me to feeeeel down. it's never easy to stay happy for very long, because of the various problems and also.. its studying that kept me busy to think at all....

i will make the most out of everything, find joy in every little thing. try to keep one eye close over stupid, irritating, sad feeelings. =) in search of the happy-go-lucky, contented girl hidden in myself. =)

maths paper 1&2 killed me instantly. actually, i thought i managed to calm myself down for paper 2, and i tried to be high so as to stay calm... BUT, when i seee the questions, only question marks pop out of my mind. its so sad. :( i feeel so pekchek when i'm doing paper 1 too. halfway through the paper, i had a strong feeeling to just throw everything from my desk, and cry out loud. i cant seeem to describe this helplessness. :( so, BYEBYE maths MYE.

i thought i'm gona fail f&n paper. but i'm so damn heng laas. 50/100. :D this is enough to make me happy. of cause, i know i shouldn't get contented over a mere pass, but... for not studying hard, and slacking throughout the time i'm supposed to be studying all abt FOOD.. i really have to be contented. i promise i'll not slack the next time =)

another :D thing, i DID NOT tikam for combined science today. =) i tried my best and gosh, i didnt know much to the answers for chemistry. well, at least i tried. ^_^ its the first time i did not tikam for any question for multiple choice. HOHO, the feeeling's great. =D

i got a strong feeeling i'm gona not do well/fail alot subjects, despite trying my best and studying super hard. =X i hope this is not true. seriously, i fear getting back results.

lastly, thankyou everyone who had help me throughout the exam period. =) and panda, daniel for motivating. :DD of cause my father, mother for not giving us any pressure. =D despite us saying we're gona fail this and that. YUP YUP, all these helps alot. ^_^ no matter what's the end results, i shall just learn from all the mistakes and... cry? over it. heee.

random thoughts

一直坚持下去，就一定能达到目标吗？
我不知道，真的不知道……
但，不管怎样，我都一定会一直……
坚持下去的…… =)

who is the first one you will think of when you are happy, sad or having sth to share? :D